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| Everything is great. And I mean, GREAT!
Got a new job at Barnes. Like the floor I'm on. Acute medicine. I'm working nights which is something to get used to, but not bad if you do all 3 shifts in a row. I have a career now, yay!
Jake is awesome. He's looking for a house. We've done a lot the past 10 months. Went on a hike yesterday at Hahn State park which was gorgeous. I got some new hiking boots and they worked great. We're planning a 2 day adventure in the woods- camp/hike sort of thing. I'm very glad I stuck to my guns over the years and waited for the right guy. I don't think I could've met a better match. And he's freakin' gorgeous too! ;) All the break-ups and grieving and rebuilding have been worth it. And for the first time in my life, I feel content.
Family is doing well too. We just went to visit them a couple weekends back. Saw the Dandy Warhols at Liberty Hall with the whole fam. I danced my ass off and Jake and Will hit it off well. Dad and I danced our butts off, I should say!
Looking forward to Halloween. Jake's buddy has a party and there's a few other things going on. I still don't know what to be!
I'm hanging low tonight. Been a busy weekend. Girls night out saturday, hiking yesterday, night out w/ Jake a friends friday, day to myself today. I'm watching "Signs" and getting sleepy. I love this movie!
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| I miss my friends. I'm in St. Louis w/o my friends, in love with a guy who has tons of them and I feel like I have not bonded with any woman since Heather. I'm sad for that. Emily and Krista always said this was a transitional place. Now I'm wondering what fate has in store for me. Am I manipulating my relationship, or am I really a hormonal freak right now? I have begun to question the sincerity of my situation. I am intense in my emotions. I am not easily pacified. I question promises. I look for validation and stability. I want these things without question. It takes awhile to prove character. Trust is not so easily given from a person who has been faulty in judging (sp?) character. And finally, I'm afraid I've been forgetting about ME.
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| I can't believe a month has gone by!
Just working now and I'm indecisive about the ED. I will hopefully know what I want to do within the next couple of weeks. I just don't like it much. I'm getting better at it, but it is so understaffed at times and slow and chaotic all the time. I feel like I did at my worst moments waitressing yet obviously with people's lives. I can keep up, but I'm always busting my ass! I've got my app out to other hospitals in the area, so we'll see what happens. I'm thinking OR, ICU or hell, even kids!
Jake and I attempted to go camping last week, but it has been so rainy this spring that we keep getting rained out. It really aggravates me sometimes! I'm hoping May will be a better month. We always have fun though and just yesterday we went for a big bike ride through the park. I love Forest park. So does everyone else in the area. It really is a gorgeous place to be.
I miss having more girls around. I've got a couple here that I'm fond of, but I want more! I went with Jake to a wedding earlier last month and I do like a lot of the girlfriends and wives of his friends, but I just miss having that connection I have with some of my friends. Even Heather and I were instantaneous. Anyway, I've been feeling a little sorry for myself but I'll get over it.
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| Sittin around before I start my day. Jake's off at a bachelor
party for the weekend and I've got a ton of shit to do around
here. I still haven't done my taxes or my laundry, so that's
about the extent of my morning and afternoon. Hopefully, I'll do
something tonight. Put the vibe out and they shall come.
Actually, I may run around with Matt for a bit.
My folks were in town yesterday and Dad and I went to watch the KU game
at a bar in Shrewsbury with a bunch of other KU alumni which was
awesome. Saw this guy I knew from a while back there and it was
good to catch up with him. Mom and I went shopping yesterday and
I got a bunch of groceries! Yay!
I'm ready for some awesome weather. Cold, cold, go away.
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| I've been kind of out of the loop lately due to all that's going
on right now. I'm training at work still and they have me going
to classes on the side (EKG and ACLS over the next few weeks) and I'm
working with a woman who I've had words with in the past, but whom
actually is probably the best teacher I've had yet. I was a
little put off when told she'd be my preceptor but quickly put aside
any reservations I may have had because I know that the best
relationships sometimes start off in less than encouraging
circumstances. I bet I'll love her in the end. Anyway, I've
got my eye on the OR too.
Not sure where I'm going to end up. I like the ER still, of
course, but I'm not sure I like the endless array of non-emergent
clientele with the neverending demands! I genuinely like my job
and want to help SICK people, not non-compliant people.
Jake and I spent Easter with his family - I had to go buy a dress for
church and although neither of us are religious per say, we had a very
traditional holiday. Spent the afternoon and evening mingling
with his many cousins, aunts and uncles. Had a nice time.
Last week we went hiking in AR and southern MO. Not sure if I
mentioned it. Stayed at his parents condo at Tablerock lake and
had a blast! We found amazing trails and the countryside out
there is pretty rugged. We've had a ton of fun doing this
stuff. I think I've met my match. He's been doing all this
stuff for years- I'm in love.
My folks are coming to visit this week. I can't wait!
Anyway, just got done watching "no country for old men" and I really liked it, in an odd sort of way.
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